I think I either have a minor hernia or I really pulled some of my stomach muscles. Yesterday while working at the ski hill I basically groomed the whole entire ski hill with the snowmobile, because the snow rangers didn't answer the phone calls. I ended up putting somewheres in the realm of 12-16 miles on the snowmobile, going up and down the runs trying to compact the snow.

While I was 'grooming' the bunny hill, the snowmobile got stuck in snow up to my knee and hips. It took a lot of pulling and lifting, but I eventually got it unstuck.

Not much going on in life, being that it's the holidays. Spending some time with the famn damily, etc. Other than that, it's building up my music collection in the wake of the RIAA's announcement that they will no longer start legal battles over the downloading of music. That, and downloading some fansubs or various shows.

Today I had an interview for the Chippewa Valley Council, working at the Phillips Scout Reservation. I drove across the state, about a 4 hour drive, for the interview. My sister, being a Venturer, came with me and applied too. If it were just me, I would have mailed the app. But since my sister has never met any of the people involved with the CVC, it was nice for her to do her interview in person. She did well from what I could hear, and my interview was just us reminiscing about last summer's fun. I'm not saying I have a job, but it's a pretty fair chance.

It's nice to get her (my sister) out of the Bay-Lakes Council. I've taken too much of a beating from my dealings with the BLC. Don't get me wrong, I've done a shit ton of volunteer work, paid work, and a lot of blood, sweat, and tears. But too much emotional stigma in dealing with the council and the lodge. It's beyond the point where I can't sit and take pride anymore in it because of certain people's behavior and the promoting of lying, conniving, and insults.

I'm sick of the bureaucracy. They revolt change, moving forward, or doing things correct. The BSA has been a leader in helping young men achieve things because they have been relatively dynamic with the changes of the past 100 years, while upholding many of the same ideas. However, with the BLC, if you disagree with them (certain camp directors, program directors, certain pain in the ass people), or are different in your attitudes with the camping programs as staff, etc. you're pretty much in the creek. Because I had the spine to stand up and change, say things that need to be said, my name is affiliated with a lot of great things... and kicked around the mud by people that I once considered family (GDC/BPSC staff).

Because I share the same last name with my sister, when she applies she's not even treated fairly in the application process at GDC, and it's a shame that BPSC couldn't find a position for her (yes, ok, so that camp director actually likes me since I pulled his ass out of a personal fire so I have no qualms with him, but still...) And lastly, anytime I do anything in the BLC I fear I'll run into Heather. I found out today that I'm not the only victim of her accusations, that she pulled it on one of the people she 'cheated' (I use the term loosely, but technically, it could be construed as cheating) on me with. As if accusing people of things, creating false stories that could have ruined a man's life were bad enough, it seems to only get worse. To quote my new boss... It's not my problem anymore.

I'm glad I'm moving on into the CVC, where it seems I'm appreciated for what I've done and what I can do, and where everyone is laid back. This is the first place I've walked into, and immediately felt like apart of the family despite the fact I had joined late in the season.

I know I'm a different person after all of this. Yes, I'm doing a lot better in life. Ok, maybe not so much in the grades department, but if you rode the coaster I've ridden you'd be pretty well blended yourself. I am for the most part a lot more independent in life. And I've tied off a lot of loose ends from the past 4 years of getting kicked in the balls by a lot of people. I only managed to limp out of it all with PTSD, a severely bruised ego, and a lot of bridges burned.

This upcoming New Year's I'll be in Sheboygan for a lovely party, hanging out with my fraternity brothers and stuff. It will be a nice release, hopefully I can sit down and have fun. I'm looking forward to it.

Another thing to mention is that soon I'll start working on my AOWC for PADI. Right now I just need to coordinate with the outfitters about the details, etc. and I'll work on the classwork on my own. Maybe I'll be able to save some of my paychecks this summer to put towards some scuba gear. Hrm... Or upgrading my rig... Or that tattoo... Ok. That's another blog entry for later.

... that says "Hey, become an important person in my life, then abruptly drop out of it, treat me like shit, leaving me to beat myself up over it because I care too much because I actually cared about at least 2 people in my life."?

Because that's happened to me within the last 5 months. First, it was my ex going stark raving mad and pulling some shit. Now, it's a good friend of 7 years who randomly ignores me.

It's been awhile since I blogged about something, I've been busy moving into a new room, moving back home for break, etc. Forgive me for those of you who hate personal rants, but this one is something you all may enjoy.

My roommate is a kid who grew up 10 miles away from the university I go to. He's a first semester freshman who is still in the phase of living that involves attempting to get drunk, drugs, and laid every night. Since the beginning of the year I've talked to him about some of his habits. Like rolling joints in the dorm room when I'm there. Having makeout sessions that go a bit too far when I'm in the room. Him and his flavor-of-the-week having sex in the room... When I'm present.

Basically, his response was that I "need to live a little, and experience life". Exscuse me? I'm a junior, living in the dorms all of my collegiate career. I've been in plenty of situations involving proper etiquette on dorm room sex, visitors, life in general. It was never a problem before in dealing with these situations, and I haven't changed at all. I know what it's like to live in the dorms, and let me tell you, I'm well within my bounds to tell him to stop the aforementioned things. AT LEAST WHEN I'M IN THE ROOM.

Basically he went as far as calling me a douchebag, that I'm a horrible roommate (despite my previous roommates never had a complaint about me), blah blah blah. Simply put, after the last incident (him and his slut lady having sex at 3 am in the room when I'm trying to sleep. Both of the beds are lofted so it's rather hard not to notice. Duh.) I informed him that if he puts one toe out of line, he's going to feel the pain.

After that, he called me an ass, and went on about how he has the dirt on me, which is surprising, as I've been an angel so for. For the most part. Either way, I told him that he has no proof, and that I'm calling his bluff. The next 2 weeks passed without much incident, other than him blaming me for having his Ipod stolen. Sure... blame me. But that's another argument.

I eventually moved out of my room into a friend's close by. After I was done moving out, I informed the RA that I was set and that he could give the final inspection on the room.

While in there, he saw that my roomie had a bottle of vodka sitting in his closet, which was sitting wide open (my ex-roomie is 18, oopsies...). So, my roomie got nailed for under-aged possession. (I believe that's 150$-220$ fine)

But that's not all folks, he didn't checkout correctly, so that's another fine. (50$)

But wait, there's more!

He also got another fine for drug/alcohol paraphanelia that was out in the open! (150$+!)

So all in all, it was quite the price tag in fines that he had accrued. The RA talked with him when he came back, and discussed with him the fines he will be receiving, etc. At this point, I was moving into my new room, and while going back and forth I saw and heard bits of the conversation, as well seeing my ex-roomie's face when it was over with. It looked like he was about to be sick.

What a lovely Christmas gift, nothing is like watching someone get nailed for the shit they pull. I warned him that stuff like this could happen and he should have been smarter about it, etc. But what did I know. I'm just a student who knows nothing about dorm living and is nothing but an angel. /sarcasm

I've talked to the RA's previously about these problems, and simply commented that he's tapdancing in a minefield and one day he'll find one the hard way. My words came true.

Merry Christmas to y'all!

Today the first ever FMD.com article was posted onto this site. The inaugaral post is a post about Video Card coolers, and my documented fix for my rig. I previously wrote the article awhile ago, but since FMD.com is the place for articles, I officially rewrote it and reposted it here.

Alas, there are many things to write about here... I've recently asked a friend to help out with a few articles, and hopefully sometime during this winter break I'll have him set up enough to post. He's a writer for the school paper in the areas of Music and Gaming, so naturally he's got a niche. Who knows, maybe this site with the extra content may start attracting users. This, is the ultimate goal. To create a community to freely talk about life. In other words, more than likely something around what XKCD.com is. Minus the racism/stupidity of the IRC channel.

If you'd like to help write, contact me.

I'm currently sifting through various modules to see what they can do. I'm looking into expanding the profiles, and a few other things, mostly related to search engine optimization, crontabs, etc. I've been talking to Gronk about a few graphics, etc. But other than a few minor tweaks, this is it for this site appearance wise, until I find another good design/template. You'll also have noticed that Google Ads have been added to the site too. This will help with SEO, and a few other things.

On the 'personal' side of things (this is my blog... I can talk about that all too!) I'm moving out of my dorm room, into another room across the wing. Needless to say, I'm stoked for the move, because my 'new' roommate is pretty kicking. Much better than my current roommate... By a shit ton. And yes, that is a metric unit of measure. I'm positive I won't have to deal with walking in on my roomie having sex, seeing his girlfriend walk around half naked, listen/see random makeout/groping sessions, or them having sex when I'm in the room. At 3 am. Never again. At this point, it's almost justifiable homicide. I'm sure that if I could get 12 people on a jury that have had shitty roommates, I could walk out a free man... But let's not go that far.

Other than that... I'm ready for winter break. I'm not one for "going home" or even wanting to go home, but it's been a horrid semester and other things piling on has worn me down to the point of actually wanting to go home. And start a fresh next semester, hopefully things will take off from there.

So, grab a drink of choice, and a toast to many new beginnings!

It appears that I temporarily broke the website for awhile today, I apparently accidentally deleted a file that wasn't *SUPPOSED* to be linked with what I was working with. I don't know why or how, but the files' absense caused Drupal to go ape until I started to undo my work.

Needless to say, I have it back up and running, finally. In the mean time I'm going to keep working on the templates, etc. So if the site goes ape for awhile, you know why. I dun did it again.

And whomever is the person looking through this site for a directory of photos of me and my ex, please stop. I'm not sure if it's a spider or not, but if it is her, knock it off. Effing pain in the ass. If you are 'her' or a close relative/person: You/she gave up your/her opportunity of life with me, so stop trying to weasel back in/eavesdropping on my life. I blocked all people even remotely related to the topic for a reason. Respect that, please.

This is a mod for Source that redoes the whole entire Half-Life story in the source mod. If anyone of you have played Half-Life: Source, all it was was a port from the GoldSrc engine into the Source engine. BM was completely redone from the bottom up, top down. And it looks... orgasmic. They kept it true to the story, and definitely made it look appealing. The dev's for this game will most definitely get a job somewhere (I believe they had, but don't know offhand...)

http://www.blackmesasource.com/

They just released a trailer of their works and my jaw hit the ground...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oGlhgVz5r6E

One aspect of gaming isn't just the sights, but the other senses that get tickled by the experience, on the site they also have some of the music that has been made for the game.

I'm completely excited to see this (unofficial) version of Half-Life.

In other news, rather little was accomplished this Thanksgiving break. But changes will come. Slowly. Eventually... Yeah, what can I say. Life has me by the wrist again.

Well, well, well. It's that time of year again where that bird is pretty damn tasty. I've come back my hometown for some family time, something I really haven't done in the past few months.

Aside from the whole family schtick, I'm taking advantage of the unwatched DSL connections, since I can't download things when I'm at campus. My music collection is... expanding.

Aside from that, a few things will more than likely happen this week. I know for a fact I'm going to sit down and work out the framework for my Fraternity's website. I'm not going to worry about the online archival of everything just yet. But I have to keep reminding myself I'm going to somehow have to integrate it in the future. Aside from that, I'll be adding a third column to the layout of the site for ads, etc. I will also be adding a top header/section area for the google ads that are a bit sporadically placed at the moment.

I'll also be adding a few of the photos from the time here too on facebook. So, if you have me on there, take a peek on my albums there.

So, on that note, I must go back to my workings. Have fun, yall... And stay out of trouble. If you can't stay out of trouble, at least be safe. If you can't be safe, don't name it after me o.0

This last weekend was one of the best ones in my life, to be honest. I drove back to Lakeland College Thursday to visit all of my Zeta Chi brothers and meet the pledges. On Friday I hung around Lakeland, ran some errands and picked up the new shirts.

That Friday night was the crossover procedure, where pledges become members. Afterwards, after some fraternal celebrations we held the annual Zeta Chi Toga party to celebrate our new brothers and to let loose.

It was one of the more fun things I've done in awhile, I even managed to get dragged onto the dance floor for some drunken dancing. After the party some of the Zetas went down to the Phi Delta Omega suite, and then eventually booked over to the apartments for some more partying and a good round of Family Guy. We were up until 6 am, awake by 11 am to head off into Sheboygan for some great hungover grub. After our abrupt lunch, we ended up watching a few movies and catching up with some of the Alumni.

Saturday night we rolled into Legend Larry's for some nationally winning buffalo wings. Our party of about 9 wolfed down 100 wings, plus a good 6+ pitchers of beer. Then, it was off to the Silver Fern, a bar that one of the Zetas own. Much joy and merry making was done there, and once again it was back to the apartments for some more Family Guy until 5:30 am, and then I slept until 9.

Thank goodness I didn't have a hangover, or the 6 hour drive across the state would have sucked. At the end of the drive, and chauffering, I drove about a total of 420 miles. I got home around 8 pm, and then crashed into bed until class this morning.

This last weekend was damned awesome. I haven't had this much fun in a long time, and it was great to see so many people I haven't seen in so long. Unfortunately I didn't get many pictures of everything, I wish I had.

Now, because I didn't study at all this weekend, I have an exam I really have to study for tonight. So, I had better get going... w00t.

Today, I had one of those moments when something dawns on you. For me, it was today while I was hacking at my face with my razor, trying to shave. I haven't shaved my face or really been great on the upkeep of my personal appearance as of late, a byproduct of not looking in the mirror.

I'm not a mountain man, despite my previous appearance.

Anyways, as it goes, while cleaning the razor I realized what color was coming in on my beard on some patches, the traditional Buechel red beard. When I look at my family, I seem out of place, and a lot different from them. I don't act like them, I'm not interested in the same things, etc. Don't get me wrong, they're still my family and I'm bound to them, I just don't seem to 'blend in' with them. Seeing the little genetic traits like the red facial hair made me smile and realize that yes, I am a Buechel and I can't run from it no matter how much I seem to want to.

It seems as of late I've been having quite a few "I am" this or that kind of moments. I have a feeling it is the result of my wandering aimlessly in the past few years of my life. "Not all who wonder are lost" is a phrase that comes to mind, but in my case, I really have been lost. And I'm getting myself out of that position, and starting to get my bearings. In a sense, I'm finally growing up. Although I think my inner child would definitely refute that comment...