So, I've gotten a local manufacturing job, I've done about 3 shifts so far there, and the aches and pains are slowly disappearing. I've just been gunning for the weekend so I can do something with the lady. But she doesn't want me to come up or her come down. She has "work to do" and wants to be by herself.

Which is ok and all and I completely understand it, it's something I've felt before, but the timing could have been better. This is the only one reason I lived through this week without falling apart.

And now I'm in one of those foul moods where nothing seems to go right. I don't know what to describe the feeling, but I call it "prowling" where I find myself driving around late at night, going for weird walks, or wandering around the local Wal-Mart with no intentions of doing anything because it's the only thing open at 3 in the morning. During this whole time it's a rather bitter situation and I'm really pissed for no apparent reason.

I just want this summer to be over. Let me go back to the place away from home where I don't have to worry about the shit that haunts me.